April 2020
Dear Sisters,
     This is just something I felt I should share with you, I hold these things very lightly, aware how easy it is to be led astray by my own imagination, so please be free to receive or reject what I am saying.
      It began with a time of deep worship, the presence of Jesus was very real, but in a different way to my ‘normal’ concept of Him. He looked magnificent but there was a sadness that clung.  As I looked He held out His hands to me and I was aware that He wanted to pass to me what He was holding.  Somehow I knew that He was giving me a precious gift.  I reached out and He placed it in my hands.  It felt tactile, almost flowing, scarlet in colour and glowing.  It seemed to nestle in my hands as though it belonged there and was making itself comfortable, there was a sense it was alive.
     I had no idea what it was or what it represented, only that it had a value beyond price and was not being given to me but to the world. My part was to pass it on.  For a while I stood holding it while He gazed into my eyes.  It was a time of intense intimacy, He seemed to be telling me that I knew very well what to do, but I could not reach that level of understanding.
     For two days I waited, hoping, expecting, some clear detailed direction but received nothing.  I had joined a virtual prayer group and had felt a degree of frustration with the prayer understanding, feeling it fell far short of God’s heart, this applies to many others I have looked at and left me sad, with a sadness that is more, I think, than my own.
     I came to understand the enormous value our Lydia teaching has had for us and have come to believe that I will be given opportunity to release that into the world. I am not talking here about promoting Lydia, rather about bringing the treasures of understanding we have into what exists within the wider church, and to those who because of the current situation are finding Jesus.  The name of Lydia is not the issue, it is the name of Jesus, the concept of listening to God, seeking His plans and purposes, not treating prayer as us asking for what we want.  I know God wants us to do that too, we are His children, but there is so much more.  I am not expressing this very well, things of the heart and spirit are impossible for me to put into words, but I just wanted to share with you.
    Moses said: Numbers 11:29 …….. Would that all the Lord’s people were prophets and that the Lord would put His Spirit upon them!
    I guess my heart is echoing that!
    My love and prayers are with you, Ann x